It's 10:30 PM. Flori has vomited all night and is finally falling asleep. One of the med students form our trips, Lauren, was kind enough to spend much of the day with her as she received chemo and radiation from 8AM - 5 PM. Flori maintained her wonderful spirits througout the day and laughed with Lauren and I as we struggle to improve our Spanish - OK, Lauren isn't struggling nearly as much as I am! We watched a big storm role in - the translation is "tormenta". How fitting - is not tormented exactly the feeling she much be struggling with right now?
I find Flori to be so completely dignified. At times in my life when I've been very sick and vomiting, I cried and begged for relief. She just quietly lies there and then sits up and just vomits in the little bucket. When I come and rub her back and clean the bucket, she just graciously and quietly says "gracias".
She had a little reprieve from feeling sick when we left the hospital. I asked if there was anything she felt like eating. She was really hungry at the moment and had a list of foods that she wanted! I was so happy to hear that so we went off to Kroger's. As we walked up and down the aisles, she looked around with amazement at all the assorted foods and choices. I felt embarressed at the absurdity of our wealth! Although I would love to hear her perception of it all, it seemed so trite to ask "So what do you think?" The only part she seemed comfortable in was the produce section. She picked out all kinds of foods I wouldn't know what to do with and I was looking forward to cooking with her. But we no sooner walked in the door, then she could barely get off the couch. After a while, she wandered out in our yard and sat enjoying the little flowers I've planted. She seemed to treasure them so much. Even in the midst of such sickness, she finds time to appreciate God's little blessings around us.
Her husband called late in the evening. He sounds so terrified. She was too sick to get on the phone but I assured him that her sickness was just a sign that the treatment is working well to shrink the cancer.
We called Ismael. His church is meeting every day to pray deeply for Flori's recovery.
It's hard for me to imagine that she won't be cured. She has already seen so many miracles and there are SO MANY people loving her and praying for her right now. Please pray with us that her this agony will stop for her.